Even Still More Stream-of-Consciousness

campfire in the distance beckons me out of the forest the confusion lifts the fire gives me a goal a path a purpose for a short while but the fire is not lit for me at all I can see that now as I get closer the trees become buildings and the campfire becomes streetlights and the forest is actually a city but as much as appearances change it's still essentially the same thing the heart of the city is the heart of the forest both pump the same lifeless blood I have walked in circles but I will not be trapped here like a bloated tick is trapped to a dog I spit out what the cityforest has attempted to force feed me and without a sound everything disappears I feel a lightness a peace a calmness of spirit and joy overtakes me I am an eight year old chasing the summer sunlight I am watching the night float along through the window of my friend's car I am listening to the waves break gently against the beach as I fall asleep I am laughing loud I am smiling big and I am and I am and I am


The edges of my eyes are starting to feel tired but I don't want to go to sleep just yet I blink once and it works fine I decide to blink again but I don't unblink and just konk out falling to the floor in a heap a zombie me climbs from my unconscious body and roams the room blindly this ghost version of me has no eyes and 3 arms the arms flail around the room as if searching desperately for something it would be making a huge a mess if it weren't a ghost but as it is the panicked spirit's hands pass right though objects that would have otherwise scattered monster me still hasn't found what it was searching for he or I or whatever pause for a moment and then decide to give up on this place and ghost me leaves straight through the wall and I lose sight of him now it's just me and my unconscious corpse of a body in this room ohshitohshitohshitohshit how can I be seeing this I shouldn't be able to see this I should be unconscious in my body but I'm not I'm thinking this probably a bad thing but I feel ok though I feel like me but if I'm not in my body what am I I try to look at myself but I can't see me ohshitohshitohshit I start to panic a little bit am I not really me am I a monster me with 3 hands and no eyes I have no way of knowing I starting to really freak out now this is some fucked up shit I shouldn't be where I am I should be in my body fuckfuckfuckfuck this is bad this is bad and then all of a sudden the world shatters around me I brace for I don't have the slightest clue what and I don't even have a body to brace but somehow I do it anyway but all that happens is I wake up in my body phew